Chalta Chala

"" Yun chalta chala main to kisi ne na jana mjhe....
takra k gira to kisi ne na pehchana mjhe....
socha logo ne pilaya hai saaki ne jaam ise khoob,
ya khoya hua hai yaadon me soch kar jammen ko apna mehboob...
kch ne u kaha ki lagta hai ye juda hai jameen se khoob....""

""Is raah me, humsafr milte hai bichudte hain....
par safar kar sake sath me humrahi hai kam...
Par jab aaj tum ek madhosh si nisha le kar aaye ho...
sochte hain tumko dkh kar aarzu hai khoob par dil me dhadkane hai kam...
thaam lun ye pal,thamm lun ye sama..
palchin bhi na ho juda o mere mehboob...""



-Abhishek Tiwari ( AbT)

Tanha Tanha



Kuch Kosise Meri, Kuch Tumhari hai yun tanha tanha.............


"kosise kch aisi thi humari tanha tanha.....
aaraju bhi daamn thaami thi  tanha tanha......

hai gar hota meri chahto ko to na hoti yun tanha tanha... "

"hai ye tamanaa meri kch khamosh si,

 kch bebas si, behkti hui, chehkti hui...
par suna hai ise maine shaam baithe tanha tanha....""

""unki chahat aur humari aarzu ka naata aisa purana..
kabhi gumsum khawaboo me aate tha wo....
hai shikwa nahi hume kisi gile se..
bas smjh sake wo humari aarzu aur chahat ...
 gumsum,begana, anjana afasana humara...

to na chodhte wo hume yun tanha tanha .......""


-Abhishek Tiwari (AbT)

Poems of Movie Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara


1-
Ik baat honton tak hai jo aayi nahin
Bas ankhon say hai jhaankti
Tumse kabhi, mujhse kabhi
Kuch lafz hain woh maangti
Jinko pehanke honton tak aa jaaye woh
…Aawaaz ki baahon mein baahein daalke ithlaye woh
Lekin jo yeh ik baat hai
Ahsas hi ahsas hai
Khushboo si hai jaise hawa mein tairti
Khushboo jo be-aawaaz hai
Jiska pata tumko bhi hai
Jiski khabar mujhko bhi hai
Duniya se bhi chupta nahin
Yeh jaane kaisa raaz hai
There is a matter that has almost come to my lips
This is evident in my eyes
Sometimes from you, sometimes from me
They ask for words
To take their shape and come to my lips
And to be embraced by my voice
But this matter
Is a feeling…only a feeling
Floating in air like fragrance
Fragrance becomes its voice
That you know of
That i know of
It’s not hidden from the world
Don’t know what kind of secret is this

2 -
Jab jab dard ka baadal chaya

Jab ghum ka saya lehraya
Jab aansoo palkon tak aya
Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya
Humne dil ko yeh samjhaya
…Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai
Duniya mein yunhi hota hai
Yeh jo gehre sannate hain
Waqt ne sabko hi baante hain
Thoda ghum hai sabka qissa
Thodi dhoop hai sabka hissa
Aankh teri bekaar hi nam hai
Har pal ek naya mausam hai
Kyun tu aise pal khota hai
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai
Every time the cloud of pain loomed
A tear filled my eyes
When this lonely heart was scared
I told my heart ‘Why do you cry for such reason? This happens everywhere in this world’
These dark lonely times, time has distributed them to all.
Some sadness is part of everyone’s story,
Some sunshine is a part of everyone’s life
Your eyes are damp for no reason
Every second is a new season
Why do you waste your time over such matters
Why do you cry I asked my heart

3 -
Pighlay neelam sa behta hua yeh samaan
Neeli neeli si khamoshiyaan
Na kahin hai zameen
Na kahin aasmaan
Sarsaraati huyi tehniyaan, pattiyaan
Keh rahi hain ki bas ek tum ho yahaan
Sirf main hoon meri saansein hain aur meri dhadkanein
Aisi gehraiyaan
Aisi tanhaiyaan
Aur main sirf main
Apne honay pe mujhko yaqeen aa gaya
The moment flows by like molten sapphire
Deep Blue silences
No Earth below
No Sky above
The rustling branches and leaves
Saying that only you are here
Only me
My breath
My heartbeat
Such Depth like this
Such Loneliness like this
And me only me
I now believe I exist
Credit:Sudha
 
4-
Dilon mein tum apni
Betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum
Nazar mein khwabon ki
Bijliyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum
Hawa ke jhokon ke jaise
Aazad rehno sikho
Tum ek dariya ke jaise
Lehron mein behna sikho
Har ek lamhe se tum milo
Khole apni bhaayein
Har ek pal ek naya samha
Dekhen yeh nigahaein
Jo apni aankhon mein
Hairaniyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum
Dilon mein tum apni
Betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum
If you carry impatience in your heart then you are alive
If you carry dreams in your eyes then you are alive
Learn to live like the free waves of wind
Learn to flow like the sea does as waves
Receive every moment in life with open arms
Every moment is a new beginning seeing with your eyes
If you carry surprise in your eyes then you are alive
If you carry impatience in your heart then you are alive
kyunki Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara!.. jee lo har pal.. jee lo har wo sama....

Internet @ Bangalore


After I moved to Bangalore in June ’11, and I had shifted in to my PG , the first thing I wanted here was a decent internet connection (basic necessities for living these days are roti, kapda, makaan & broadband). Unfortunately enough, that was the last thing I could get (from the huge list I had, including all the house furniture).
I started my analysis of available options(BSNL,TATA WiMax, Tata Indicom Broadband, Airtel & Sify) and shortlisted two of them, BSNL & Airtel. My colleagues guided me to go for Airtel as BSNL guys might take a long time to install it.
Chapter 1: Airtel
I applied for an Airtel connection over their helpline. They promised to get back to me within 3 working days. That did happen. they called me again and again after every hour only to get a new phone number to connect on, not for . Luckily that new field incharge who told me that Airtel had not yet laid lines in my area (Jayanagar 1st Block). I decided to move on and try my luck with the then new isp named YoU broadband.
Chapter 2: You BroadBand
After I applied for a connection (to a third party, the new-connections department is outsourced) over the phone. same days an executive from department visited my rented house for the installation. I thought this was my lucky day (I was wrong).  Unfortunately for me, he dont have wire laid -on my area. Next destinatation BSNL broadband.
Chapter 3: B.S.N.L. (best hai mere liye… its their tag line)
I applied for the BSNL connection on 23rd Jun 2007. They clearly told me that I’d get the landline phone after one week and the broadband after another one week ATLEAST. :)  .
Chapter 5: Sify Broadband
In the meanwhile, i thought of applying for Sify Broadband. I knew that that the service would be pathetic, but as they say, beggars are not choosers. Now, Sify has outsourced the management and distribution of their service to local cable operators(computer/network education is not an eligibility criteria). The cable operator told me that i have to spend 1000/- for service installation and 2800/- for the wiring that he had to extend(@70/- per meter). [As they say, beggars are not choosers]. its better to look for some thing else.
Chapter 6: B.S.N.L. again and Now.
Finally i thought of moving to Data Cards or 3G data cards.i have limited choice of plenty providers, my choice is limited to BSNL and AIRTEL and Reliance. but as going to review from retailer itself to skip idea of going for reliance, I purchased the BSNL 3G, 7.2 MBPS Data Card from a retailer (for 2500/-) and all is going fine now.

 i hope this is end of finding a good Internet connection 

A Journey Inspired By Life

Pragyan Brahma.....
(Inspired By Life)
This line is very rare in anyone's life.Usually people don't come across to this type of words and motive behind this phrase.People think how anyone can be inspired by life, but its your enthusiasm and your sacred put you to a different level.

But as far i was never interested in this type of phrases and motive behind it.But when i reached MANIPAL(well this place is also known as Education Hub of India, near to Temple City Udupi) my whole idea toward life changes.

But before my story rolls over in Manipal, there are some belief i had,mostly every north Indian have for south India.people in north find south very different due to many reasons like as, language, they feel south is less corrupted (but they are not), totally different attitude toward life,reserve nature, not fun loving. but as i landed here in manipal in mere one week all my belief goes into vain as i find this place very different.
Once i left my home town Varanasi,and for me its always hard to leave home as my mother eyes is asking me question every minute "when you are coming back", and it makes feel helpless to answer ,as i don't know what i am going to do, will i get time to come back home to meet my parents at least in festivals, i consolidated her that its just a matter of few days, i will come back soon, but in deep i know its not possible to meet my parents so often. that was the first day when i had tears in my eyes (in public), when i was going for security check i was feeling very bad for me,i was very angry on me , as my parent wanted me to do this course in IT-BHU, but due to some reason i was not able to take admission.i am kind of home sick person as i love my family very much.
but times moves on so i have to take hard step forward.

Moment i reached  manipal i had this thought that "from UG college everybody to the PG college's nobody; it’s been quite a transformation, hasn’t it?" The first year in an PG course where you know no one. Sounds very fancy and maybe at a certain level it is. For most people like me it is the not first time they leave the safe confinements of home and enter a world strange and vague. To leave your cushioned life and reestablish yourself can be quite a herculean task.but still it is not a easy bite of cake.

As i was fun loving and playful every time but when student reach to next level i.e. higher education they are supposed to behave maturely and in highly disciplined manner But i have totally different idea, i don't want to make it dull and forgettable 2 years, i want to make it rememberer 2 years.
It was full raining when i reached manipal , i didn't had umbrella with me as i was not expecting weather to be like this in manipal, i was fully wet and holding my bag and walking in rain, although it was awesome but i prefer to be wet when i don't have any luggage with me. then i went to cheif warden office i found a SARDAR as chief warden here in MIT,usually people have opinion that sardar are always a joke material but they are very good in nature. i got Double seater room, from that time only i started thinking about that unknown roomy but i found totally different, he was a B.E 3rd year student with very good nature.
The day finally came commencement of class esp orientation , i was looking forward to see all my new classmates. usually people have belief that only aged student go for M.Tech, but i am happy what i saw while entering class changes all my mind set.

first person i meet here in class was Dhaval and Rajkumar as i already chatted with them in Late Orkut earlier, i found dhaval very into technical geek and full of facts, and rajkumar is totally different, he was home boy and seems that he is just moved to out of his home first time, later i meet all my class mates and i felt i got the bestest .now i will tell about everyone, starting from

before this , one of my good friend told me that, " if you want that someone special ,some of your best friend will always be with you , just buy all his good habits in you , you are not going to miss them anymore." and i am looking forward to this and started implementing ,
ok now back to topic, first guy is

Varun : i meet him in orkut after taking admission here,he is an awesome guy, i share same past company profile but his experience is in year and mine is months..i feel he is best Malyali i ever meet, very straight forward and fun loving, he is having very different kind of instant humor which i like most about him. very good with nature, always put this step forward to help someone.he is another geek. very good in studies. he is like a tube light, firstly he sparks for while and when it is needed the most he lights more than continuous bulb.he is blog person, very awesome writer. well there is lot to learn from him.And more about him is explained by his own description on facebook ..
"I am my own experiments…my own work of art...the CEO of my life! For my parents I am still an innocent bairn, for my teachers an obedient student, for God a faithful follower, for my sister a protective brother, for my neighborhood a good neighbor, for friends a reliable friend, for my ex-girlfriend some kind of an as**ole(eh...!she can't be blamed either...!).
Yea what more... jus another engineered mallu freak..!""
so i think this is all possible info about him.
good luck bro for future..

Dhaval: ohh...jai gujrat.. he is one of the best fellas with whom i spend my most of time. we both are great time killers, seriously i had very good time with dhaval. we had fun in class ,outside, food court,damn every place. we just have fun for every one out here, i pulled his leg a lot, now its my turn for him.his is short tempered so we need extra care to deal with him.he is a great learner and always ready to give fact about any damn shit. but very vital knowledge he endeavor .he is die-hard gujrat and modi fan and we all have lot of fun over that.but this i what i like about him.
he is very great human being, person who is not having phenomenon explained in 3 Idiots.he enjoy his friends achievements that i liked this attitude very much. thankfully we both got internship in same city i.e. Bengaluru, now god save bengaluru.
i wish him a great success in his life.

Rajkumar : well first think about rajkumar is that i gave him nickname "Chotu", i find him very nice person with very different attitude toward life, always ready for tour and travels, he is an sleep-o-maniac, he is very good with nature. i spend a lot of time with him.dhaval, rajkumar and myself make kind of northy group in our class, i feel very good when he is there to back me.We use to call him Maggi Maggi Maggi.. for his love toward maggi...he eats 2 packets of maggi daily in night and only 1 packet as morning breakfast.
Mostly we pull his leg for his Rape on English language, but he takes it very lightly, he is very straight forward to answer , which is the trademark for him.the basic characterstic of him is that he can confuse anyone anytime anywhere.....
chotu is always loves to eat food and stare girls.recently he gone through to his first interview of life and he done perfectly well and i am very happy about him.
And i am looking forward for great corporate and professional life with him .
i wish u buddy a great future..


Vikas J : well well....he is totally different what he looks, by looks you can find him a nerd (although he is, but not every time) and boring but he damn kool ..awesome man, helps every one in deed or in need.due to his hard work we (me,dhaval,rajkumar) cleared our first sem with good marks, we all are very thankful to him.he is very good nature and always on .we used to pull his leg a lot but he takes it very sportly. he is hell of knowledge about every damn topic. he is an Atheist and die hard fan of classical and black metal which is i think the one of in trillion likes. we call him MACHINE but he is kool with that.
in the beginning i merely use to talk to him but once we came across each other i found him superb.
i know he will get whatever he wants as he work very hard. wish him to get as soon as possible.

Melroy : "saaudis in aaudis" search this on you tube., this is what i felt wen first time saw melroy.he is totally different from others. a guy with full flirt attitude, must say a NITTE ian.
 he is very cool guy and talking , chatting , gossips...haha..and very good student overall , he knows how to handle the situation and he is party man, a person you want to be in your group.
melroy is well known to us as Mr. Yalla (an arabi word which means come lets go) and for faculties he is known as Alston,M. d'souza and many more. he is very perfect in every aspect.thankfully we got him in our class.
i wish him to reach accent in life.
yalla yalla.....


Vinay : Mr. Garipelli is a good person having full AP(andhra) characteristics, big tummy like having 8 month baby in it but he is very kool and awesome he is mixture of a party man and religious person. i found him very sporty and he is very good with studies.oops he is another nerd of our class, damn we have competition in our class for top position in between 3 V and 1 A.. i.e. Vikas, Viany , Varun and Aparna. and he is one of the leader in that. vinay loves to watch movies a lot and he is another sleep-o-maniac. i like his attitude toward his life.his a great human being.unlike me he knows what is next for him, and thats is good in him.we used to call him another machine named OTA.
i wish mr. Garipelli for his best future and happy pregnancy...:-P

Praveen YS: we call him shastriji...he is best example of how to become a optimistic and this the feature which makes him different from others .a perfect Brahmin, totally dedicated to religion and best part in him is that he don't have any bad thought about any bad things. but a great human being who can never let you go. usually we used to call him cantilever,nityanandi which he usually take very sporty almost every time.he share same feature with me as he is another multi linguistic. i am very happy about his current selection as intern in Whizchip, as i always prayed for his good life.
i had prayed for chotu and praveen to get selected in this company, and thankfully i get him again as a co-worker or colleague in this company.
i wish him good luck for future....

Vikash Kumar : well he is our bihari..he have so many name such as ATM (any time maruti), gutka King,collection King and desi raja. he is perfect material for joyful life.although he don't like to go out, but for us he went to kappu beach, he is another person here in manipal whom i like and adore, he know his shortcomings and whenever he work hard for anything he get sure shot success. he is BP king of desi videos..hehe..i know after reading he will kill me but he is one of my best buddy .he used to pull my leg a lot , but i never mind his leg pulling. once i done a mock interview for whizchip to him, for which i regretted so much but god grace he is now selected as BP-o-intern in Honeywell...he is great person with full dedication..he just need a spark for anything..

Pradeep : well he is still too young for such a practical life but too mature to handle situation.we use call him GUDI (which means SPY) , he excel in field of spying. he do this job marvelously good.pradeep is very innocent which makes him standing apart from other but i feel sometime people can use him due to this innocence,,,so dude don't make yourself vulnerable.he learn from bad lessons very quickly and try hard to work better after that.after 1 st semester i found him more onto studies and i am happy he got internship to get it maximum. i wish him all the success in field of spying and studies and professional life.




Sravan : oh he always complain to me that  i changed his name  Sravan to Sarvan..but that was mistake dude. he is good with nature but very vulnerable, he is a good human being but need to learn so many life lessons , my god he got 97 % in 12th.. damn what you  had done that time.i feel he had affair with principle's daughter.heheh...but he is very sporty and loves to mix up with friends although people find him little careless but he is not, i know he tries a lot to handle situtaion according to him but mostly it goes in wrong side.but i found him a good friend thats why what ever be the issue i straightly told him without hesitation because i know a person need to know what wrong he doing , so that he can correct it if he wants.
 i wish a good and lively life afterwards.cheer up buddy, god gave teeth to show while smiling,not always for eating.

As year passes i wish all to get success in life and will never forget him.
Hope i fully conveyed my words which are some how synchronized with the feelings i have for my dear friends.


These are some moments which is very special to me.
wow.. this photo we clicked after our first sessional.we gone nuts and went to end -point and done every damn non-sense there.it was a great time out with you guys.
L to R : sanjeet(guruji),dhaval, me, shrey, dipesh (saheb)...and photographer chotu (rajkumar)









Thanks a lot to be a part of my life. 

In Love, Pain Is A Blessing


Love is painful, but the pain is certainly a blessing. Love is painful because love brings growth. Love demands, transforms and is painful because love gives you a new birth.
Love brings your heart into relationship – and when the heart is in relationship there is always pain. If you avoid the pain, you will miss all pleasures of life. With love you become human; you stand erect on earth. With love you are vertical.
With love are problems. But with problems is growth – the greater the problem, the greater the opportunity. More and more pain, too.


That's why many people never love – it is so painful. They never become vertical.
Love never shatters you completely. It simply shatters you a little, a little bit. It shatters the crust of your ego, but the centre of the ego remains intact. Then there is a deeper pain, deeper than love, and that is of prayer – it shatters you utterly. It is death. When you have learnt how to love, and you have learnt that the pain that love brings is a blessing in disguise, it is beautiful, then you become able and you take another step – that step is prayer.
All lovers feel a little miserable. They would like to disappear completely, but it is not possible in human relationships. Human relationship is limited. But one learns from it, that there is a possibility:

if it can happen so much in a human relationship, how much more can happen in a relationship with the Divine?
Love makes you ready to take the final jump, the quantum leap. That's what I call prayer, or you can call it meditation. You have to disappear for existence to be. Love is a training ground, a school, to learn first lessons – of the beauty, of the blessing and benediction of disappearance; to learn that pain is blessed.
So when you are in love, or when love arises, cooperate with it, don't try resisting. People come to a compromise. The basic problem that i have been looking at is that lovers by and by come to a compromise. The compromise is: You don't hurt me, i will not hurt you. That's what marriage is. Then people become settled. They become so afraid of pain that they say, "Don't hurt me and i will not hurt you." But then when pain disappears, love also disappears. They exist together.
When you are in love, love hurts. It hurts terribly.
But never resist, never create any barrier for pain. Allow it. And by and by you will see that it was a wrong interpretation. It is not really pain. It is just that something is going so deep in you that you interpret it like a pain. You don't know anything else. You are only aware of pain in your past life, in your past experience. Whenever something penetrates deep, you interpret it as pain. Don't use the word 'pain'. When love and love's arrow goes deep into your heart, close your eyes and don't use words – just see what it is, and you will never see it is pain. You will see it is a benediction. You will be tremendously moved by it. You will feel joyous. Don't use words. When something new happens to you, always allow a deep look into it without any language.

Shiva ::: who power me from Inside

Considering Shivas unprecedented wisdom,His unique qualities of leadership,His unbounded love for human beings in a word,His unsurpassed uniqueness in all aspects of life spiritual aspirants realised that although Shiva was human in form,He was in fact none other than Brahmn on earth,or what is called Taraka Brahmn.

In the inseparable relationship of Shiva and Shakti,Shiva is absolutely simple.Nowhere in His expressions is there any complexity.Even at the time of relating to Prakriti,He is very simple;He is not at all complex.He is discharging His duties in all fields of life,whether big or small,domestic or social,worldly or spiritual,without losing His simplicity.Even when He sets forth to get married,He is always His simple self.Thus Shiva was simple and straightforward in all respects.The greatest thing people should learn from Shiva is this sort of straightforwardness and simplicity,and along with that,there was no pomp and show in any aspect of Shivas life.
Shiva,who had countless occult powers,before whom everyone bowed with bended knee,was completely indifferent to His powers.This greatness of Shiva was a distinct trait of His character.While some gods and goddesses wore various types of ornaments some had crowns on their heads,some bangles on their wrists,earrings,golddecorated girdles around their waists Shiva had no ornaments.His ornaments were His followers,His devotees the common people.Followers of Shiva were called gana or mass of followers,in Sanskrit.These people were the ornaments of Shiva.They made up Shivas family.His joys and sorrows,pleasures and pains centred round them.And Shivas family meant the entire universe.All the persons of this universe,whether frustrated or joyful,educated or uneducated,devotees or opponents,were included in His family.No one was excluded,because all together made up Shivas golden home in His thatched house.Who could be excluded That is why Shiva was so close to the hearts of the common people.He belonged to one and all.


om namah shivay..

yatra tatra sarvtra....


kashi se janme kashi me mit te...shiv k upasak kabhi na girte.....


jai bhole...

Whats wrong with endings

Life goes through many phases,each of which ends to give way to another.We may not realise it then,but later when we join the dots,it is clear how each ending paved the way for a new beginning,........................

EVERY relationship comes with an expiry date and when it is time for it to end,there are distinct signs that point towards the same.Now,it is another matter whether we choose to heed these or not.Of course,the ending may not necessarily always mean a physical separation,as in the case of blood relationships or a marriage,but definitely a phase ends to enable the start of another.It is difficult for us to accept endings even though the only certainty about anything in life is the inevitability of its expiry.And so sometimes,even when it stares us in the face,we refuse to accept that a relationship has played itself out.It often happens that one person accepts the finality earlier than the other.This can be a traumatic experience for the one left behind.
Early signs of expiry appear when a relationship starts giving us more stress and pain,than happiness.You may have tried everything and yet not been able to get it back on the footing you desire.You try all the old tricks and yet are not able to bring back the magic of earlier days.And when this starts distressing you so much that it af fects your peace of mind and hurts your dignity,it is certainly time to end the relationship.
It is said that we come into each others lives and strike up relationships when we need to learn certain lessons from each other.Our mutual experiences teach us a lot.When there is nothing more to be learnt,we move on to other people and experiences as life is a constant process of learning.Sometimes,we may do so voluntarily;at other times matters are taken out of our hand and we become mere witnesses or victims of the situation.
Women,it is observed,find it more difficult to let go and walk out of a relationship than men do.This is because,nurturer and preserver that she is,a woman tries to patch things and keep the boat steady before she accepts the inevitable.A man,on the other hand,is quicker to accept the expiry date and finds it a waste of time and energy to hang in there longer.So he cuts his losses as he would with business and walks out.That does not mean that he hurts any less,just that he accepts the inevitable faster.
What is true of relationships is true of other things in life as well.For instance,a job.Nobody may throw you out,nor any circumstances make you particularly uncomfortable,but you may still realise that it is time to walk out of the job you are holding presently.You have learnt what you could here and are raring to go to another place and earn some more.The choice could be yours,or suddenly you may get thrown out!
Life goes through many phases,each of which ends to give way to another.We may not realise it then,but later when we join the dots,it is clear how each ending paved the way for a new beginning,and so life moved on towards its destined goal,with us picking up new experiences and learnings along the way.When the Apple CEO,Steve Jobs,got fired from the company he built,he was stunned,but years later he was to say,I didnt see it then,but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could ever have happened to me.The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again,less sure of myself. In the next five years,he started a company called NeXt and another called Pixar and met the woman he married.And the rest,as they say,is history.

If you live each day as if it was your last,some day you will most certainly be right, he quoted to great applause.


No one wants to die and yet death is the destination we all share.No one has ever escaped it.And thats as it should be because Death is very likely the single best invention of life.It is lifes change agent.It clears up the old to make way for the new.


Your time is limited,so dont waste it living someone elses life.Dont be trapped by dogma,dont let the noise of others opinions drown your own inner voice.And most important,have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.They somehow already know what you want to become.Everything else is secondary.
And so,whats wrong with endings Nothing if you look at them as new beginnings! And rather than regretting them,get on with the rest of your life!